Original Artwork By Michael Grealy ( Founder / Owner- iNVISeDGE )
Because of ongoing mental health issues, during my most recent hospital admission in October 2020, hospital staff suggested I start doing my own artwork instead of just representing everyone else’s.
The funny thing is I have never considered myself an artist because I’m not very good at drawing or painting. (I got a B for art at high school despite it being the main subject I tried really hard at. It’s “interesting” how high school seems to “pigeon-hole” us for a good part of our lives.) I am a writer, first and foremost but I don’t consider writing an art. Most of my best writing is done at about 2 o’clock in the morning. I “get woken up” in the middle of the night and there’s something that stops me from going back to sleep until I write what’s in my mind. Virtually all the “creative writing” that has ever come out of me, has been done in the middle of the night when I should be asleep (thousands of pages have been born this way). Writing sometimes just seems to gush out of me like a torrent (when it’s supposed to). There have been some nights I’ve written 20 pages in about 3 hours. In the middle of the night it often just falls out of me with no effort on my part at all. So much so that I don’t really consider any of “my” writing, mine. My fingers dance across the keyboard and eventually I just stop, collapse back in bed and go back to sleep. (Sometimes I barely even remember “I was woken up in the middle of the night” and did some more of “this strange creative writing”.)
Anyway I digress… I never was creative at all. I have struggled for a long time to become a draw creatively. This is the first piece of art I feel comfortable sharing with the world / iNVISeDGE customers. I think I like the piece of writing that accompanies this more than the piece of artwork itself. I seem to have a way with words … or so people keep telling me. This written caption took several weeks to evolve. Every word had to be “just right” before I was ready to sit down and commit to doing this piece of art.
I don’t have any goals in life. I never plan anything and don’t think I ever will. I just “go with the flow”…
But after my most recent hospital admission in the mental health unit (at a large public hospital in the outer suburbs), I set a goal to do one piece of artwork every week. (Mainly because the hospital staff said I have talent as a drawer and painter.) I’m not sure I agree but I try hard at everything I commit myself to. After that last hospital visit in October 2020, I made a decision (after I stopped wanting to kill myself every second of every day) to create a piece of artwork each week with felt pens, a pencil and a biro as the only media. I’ve done about 25 pieces of art now. This is the first one I really like so I’ve decided to share it with my iNVISeDGE “family” and friends.
Soon after posting this listing, someone asked me, “why just felt pens, a pencil and a biro?” This idea was born out of procrastination. I kept coming up with excuses for not committing myself to this one piece of artwork. The home I was living in was too small to set up any type of space to do art, I didn’t have space to store any art materials or the money to buy them either. (There are so many things I’d like to do with iNVISeDGE and they all require money and time- two precious commodities I don’t have enough of.) One day in February of 2021 I was shopping at Coles and I ambled up the aisle with stationery in it (which I never do). I saw a pack of 18 felt pens and I think they were less than $10. I found myself throwing them in my shopping basket and then after a few more steps I put them back on the shelf … then later went back and got them again. I love my felt pens now (they are one of my most prized possessions) and I find myself looking forward to doing my next piece of artwork. It’s therapeutic (this is obviously the main reason the nurses in the mental hospital encouraged me to take up doing it).
I look forward to sharing more pieces of my artwork in iNVISeDGE in the future. Thank you to anyone who read this far and …
Have a great day. :+)
Michael Grealy (3 October 2021) then revised 4 October 2021.